“I think of you as a brother,” SHE says
The words-like a spell-unlocked FEAR
Which attacked my heart relentlessly
To the point where I have now died my first death
*
I am dead inside
My heart bleeds profusely til the blood is no more
MY FEAR has taken solid form
And now exists to torture me
*
“I think of you not as a sister,
But something much more than that,”
I wish to say, but
My heart’s voice is being strangled
*
Did I speak far too soon?
Or did I speak far too late?
Did I release myself too quickly
Resulting in not relief, but the emptiness I feel now?
*
The Hurricane of Tragedy has broken
The Levees of my heart
Which suppressed my innermost emotions
Now the light which should guide me
To safe ground, has been Relinquished
And through the dark I must move alone
the sieve and the sand 
hate that.
feels worse tho when you’re older and anticipated marrying her…
you and me time.this week.
wow… thats scary.
“I think of you as a brother,” is such a terrible phrase that no one should have to hear! It is worst than “I think of you as a friend.” By that horrid phrase, that person is basically saying that liking you would mean jumping over the bridge of incest and into the weirdland.
Welcome to the world of love……….with all its joy and pain………may the former be more permanent in your evolution.
P.S. for your clarification so the ‘purpose and meaning of the word’ is clear
Levies (is an assessment—like taxes)
Levees are embankments naturally created or constructed to prevent flooding which frequently burst (much like our dreams and expectations and New Orleans levees which resulted in Katrina tragedy)
Figured you would want to know that.
Hope you both are well and prospering.
Regards from my family