sitting in your little
room,
shaking,
pressing playPRESSINGSTOP,
you grin.
you continue shaking.
you breathe a sigh of
relief,
“at least no one knows”
you think to yourself,
sating your nerves with
positivity.
your eyes see a bathroom
on your computer screen,
brought to you by apple
inc. and your girlfriend
is sleeping in the other room
and noticing this you get up
and walk what seems miles
to hear her loudly snoring and
you thinkSHITILEFTITON
and you hurry back and
you realize that you’re shaking
again and this sigh stutters
out of your mouth and falls
to the pit of your stomach
again you press play
you skip past the part
where you set up the
camera,
past the part where you
leave,
past the part where she
uses the bathroom
again you press play
the shakes come on
hard,
real hard,
you smile
grin
you smile and grin
i see you smiling
and grinning
cheesing
pressing play
i see your white teeth
through your smile
i see and i know i smelled
it on you,
i smelled it on your breath
trailing every word that
you said,
i wont forget that smell
and i wont let you live
with that.
not with that smile.
