May 19, 2013
He pulls tired eyes from the sideview mirror
Watching headlights chase dark highway
They skim to the rearview and dashboard
And he, the road’s only passenger
As miles bleed into an unaltered scenery
With tree walls that hedge him on either side
Faint premonition settles in his seat
It stares quietly at the back of his head
Enticing his mind to wander more than he would like
Prompting solitary introspection
Until a gleam of twin stars a half mile behind
Appears and gradually erodes their distance
For the length of a breath both cars drive parallel
Their engines sharing a thrum as though
They were two halves of a much larger machine
But his neighbor slides into the lead
Breaking their momentary bond
Once white headlights, now red
Driving off the pace at three hundred yards
Eased, he shifts behind the new leader
Knowing that he has found someone to follow
And the road cannot end without his knowing:
The one who goes before will be able to tell him that
Night inks out dormantly, absorbing their exchange
His exit magnifies and he takes the overpass
Counter-crossing the expressway from below
Arriving at budding sidewalks and civilization
He brakes to the stoplight to face opposing cars
And as the signal climbs down to its green perch
For a moment, he may not have remembered if asked,
He wonders, not so much where they will go, but instead
When they enter the empty parkway, who will they follow?
Well it’s cooked ain’t it! Shut up and eat it. I don’t care what you hoped for, this is how it turned out!
May 17, 2013
and i will rest in the house of my
lord, forever in thanks over what i
imagine is some pretty fantastic
tobacco, beer, burritos, and did
i mention the company? pretty sure
that ain’t gonna be too shabby either.
forever giving thanks
giving thanks forever
over a life well done.
May 16, 2013
a twinge of relief
followed by a sudden
sense that this win
will be long lived
but only enjoyed
shortly as the sore
ness in back and neck
give way to fever and
then throat pain
in a way Tylenol just
but a win is still a
win in casablanca
May 14, 2013
Even when the tough stuff happens
it’s only tough until it softens up
May 11, 2013
i don’t care what the recipe
called for my dear.
i heard you just fine
and i am thrilled with what
we’ve added to the cookies
May 10, 2013
what a futile world,
man constructs for himself
staring intensely into
all to dissolve
and leave behind
not much else
than he came
May 10, 2013
where terror turns to terroir
and wind and waves to
calm, peaceful, fishing with a beer
and a good virginia tobacco
in your pipe.
there. right after the change,
i’m flying high as the smoke thereof
May 9, 2013
Thoughts are so very different
they have no boundaries, need
no explaining; they are words
and pictures but totally unlike
A picture still needs words to
Words are still needed to
describe a picture but a thought
has use for both, but is never
dependent on either
A thought is already alive where
commentary is cumbersome, it is
the wordless movie we have seen
so many times, we already know
And expending one-millionth of
the time to think then the time to
explain—and even when we do
explain, the colors aren’t vivid
enough, the expressions aren’t
genuine enough, not quite how
we’d like them, the proportions
As she stands in the entrance
of the sanctuary, every sense
taking in the chatter, the perfume,
the palette, the cool air on her
bare forearms, the acrid residue
of a breathmint and still cannot
ascertain the beauty which is not
sight, and the voice which is
not words, which he says
Enjoy, my daughter! Look
what I have done.
May 8, 2013
Your breath is staggered, no doubt,s
from the liquid coursing through
Your little pump
coos and chirps like a mother hen
and even though your breath comes
so sharp and shallow
it feels alright
At least tonight your eyes
are closed, and the man screaming
two doors over is screaming just
a bit less.
You smiled a lot today,
and there was color in your cheeks.
things still hurt, sure,
because that’s how things go
before they get better.
The noose around your throat, though,
that’s been cut and tossed aside.
And you smiled a lot today,
and that’s the main thing anyway.
May 6, 2013
as space opens in the recesses of my mind
my back decides it’s time to give my ass
a rest. releases the muscles. relaxes.
i can bend and flex in new and interesting
thinking of things i haven’t pondered in years.
May 6, 2013
Your great great grandad was a cannibal
in a cave in the mountains of Africa
and he might have eaten my great great
grandad when he came down, many years ago
to take your great great grandad back
Now you’re yelling and I’m yelling and
we’re both on the same side more or less
and fighting the same fight kind-of sort-of
and isn’t it a wonder of the modern age!?
Time heals all wounds, I heard,
and George said that all things must pass
and that’s true;
even with everything going down the way
it might have, all those years ago,
nobody has to eat anybody anymore, and
I’m sure as shit not taking you home
May 5, 2013
A teenage couple rendezvous in the park to unleash their newfound passions.
His scrawny arms grotesquely embrace the body she’s still growing into;
plump legs and small chest; not quite the ideal woman yet.
But he doesn’t know that.
Those lanky limbs that can hardly lift a backpack tell her he’ll never let go!
His hands grasp her hips and a coolness rushes from his fingertips
to his chest and he thinks this must be love.
But it’s hormones.
Oh, but he’ll tell her it’s love anyway! And she’ll believe him.
‘Cause right now they’ve got the fever.
And he’s whispering promises that he has no way of keeping,
but he makes them anyway.
His attention is caught up in what he says are her beautiful eyes,
but he’s never examined at any others
so how would he know what’s he’s comparing them to?
And she’ll say she’s hot when she’s cold,
so she can show a few extra inches of her shoulder.
And she’ll say she’s cold when she’s hot,
so he can dangle those bony arms around her.
And won’t it be grand, this life together?
But they don’t know what that means.
They don’t know what a three week’s anniversary means.
And they’ll run through seven more, twenty-three more,
forty-nine more relationships just like it
swearing that this is the last time!
And this time I know what I’m doing!
And I won’t be fooled this time!
And this time it’s the one!
And it won’t be.
But none of that matters now, ‘cause they’ve both got the fever.
It’s that first 70 degree day in April and love is in the air.
God, this is what they’ve been waiting for all their lives!
And you’ll be damned to tell ‘em differently!
Yes, this is love. This is the fever.
May 4, 2013
i cannot stop the ants
that crawl on my desk
through the day night
i know of their general
origin but cannot find
if they have one
if they’re real
maybe they’ve followed me
for like eight years
maybe they’re inside of me
and more of a part now than
ever and are now running
across my eyelids
as a real physical metaphor
a real hallucination
the real power of the mind
in the dark
crawling around your throat
telling me to leave you,
while you sleep
because i’ve always been
the lonely type.
May 2, 2013
I keep drawing strawmen
sketched, smoldering somewhere on the backburner
my consciousness registers the faulty pitch and swings
right from contact I know it’s a knockout
shredding the stuffing out of scarecrows
stepping on a rake I already knew was there
lurching up like figures of target training
where I’ve been waiting to fire away
every argument wide with holes big enough
to light on fire and cartwheel between
but could we stop before another round
I’ve tired of this charade
and you would never say something like that
so shut up because I’m tired of arguing with you
I wrote out a big long sappy thing and then cut it out and put this down instead. My heart is suddenly open to more feeling. And it’s been hurting for so long it is unsure of how to respond. Hope, there is room for hope again. Expectation, how I’ve missed you. Longing, I hope we part ways for some time. Shit, we’ve become far too well acquainted.
April 28, 2013
holy ethiopian palm sunday.
it’s…. finally…. over.
praise the Lord.
Blessed be the LORD,
for he has wondrously shown his
steadfast love to me
April 28, 2013
Senses fail me
when I dangle myself from
the second story of our
red and brown house
Could this be when
everything comes out?
Worms with bats and
wicked little smiles
pummeling my mass with
As I swing on a line like
an empty pinata?
Your protection comes
from your sticks in hand
and my feet off the ground
But be sure:
When I climb down I
I climb down to my feet.
You, contrarily, will
crawl back to your favorite
about the last talk we never had and honoring your memory by learning from your mistakes (and my own)
April 25, 2013
the bed holds you
like it did your grandfather
it helped take his leg, too
because you sleep with your enemies
so i now lie awake staring
worriedly at my leg
surrounded by my vices
who want to eat me alive
i must move or do
April 24, 2013
Yesterday I cut myself on a piece of paper
But what a fool I was to forgo a bandage
I never should have stained blood
on your pretty white dress
April 21, 2013
Sometimes I wander to a river
rife with acids and oils
from refineries and other such
machinations and I sit and
watch the fishes float
and the sickly fawns
and coughing foxes lap
begrudgingly from its murky
surface and they choke it down
because it is all they know
and they ignore the taste
of the acids and oils
and sometimes the high-floating
fish is a low-hanging fruit
but in truth this is naught
but poison and given enough of it
every single one of you
will die without hardly living
April 18, 2013
you feed your self dog food
you’re soaking up rain water
they call this progress
you write to pass the hours off
on to someone else
hoping for validation
from like-minded beings and
publish them, anonymously
you are afraid of your own thoughts
you hear yourself say garbage words
you just walk along the hard ground
finding solace in it’s curvature
there is no direction for the aimless.