it keeps me up at night.
the anger
mixed with excitement
and joy coupled
with agony
my health is going
in the waiting.
it keeps me up at night.
the anger
mixed with excitement
and joy coupled
with agony
my health is going
in the waiting.
his perfect ship has the smallest hull fracture
and he wonders, leaving every port
“this time will it crack?
this time will the madness take?”
he’s travelling down portage road
towards the only gas station with the metro news
but the boy at the counter
his father is a regular at the bar
and knows his wife, and what’s he doing
out here this late anyway? the boy has
asked
and he can feel the crack stress
down below the captain fears
the pitch-black madness of the sea
it has tainted him, and he throws
his fists at the truck driver by
the coffee pots
the crack leaking in the madness
of the cold dark sea already
an hour passes
and i’m still here
waiting on,
fulfilling the room’s purpose;
so at least one of us should be glad,
basking in the glow of fulfillment,
being what we were created to be,
and perhaps that one is me.
perhaps i should be glad
to wait on my betters,
to be at their call,
paying them to be my betters.
but still the anger rises
and the visions of outbursts
pass before my unoccupied mind,
internally, impotently screaming,
waiting for my turn to come.
inside my hallowed spine
there are worms and things
of much naivity
inside this spine of mine
is a spreading disease
killing everything
inside my rotten spine
hides everything i am
oh how can i stand
having such a spine
where things die
all the time
inside my hallowed spine