different names/poems same things

poetry

no i won’t take you to the coffee shop
because it’s friday
so you can sit behind the myth of
shelter from your mocha froth
no not even if you thought you were
on another planet,
not even

and i won’t take you to meet your friend
“fake gold chains” or get your name
tattooed to my skin in a different language
even though you might deserve it
for how hard you tried to stand
when i walked in

i won’t take you so you won’t go
because you can stop but you can’t stop
thinking about going
so what’s the difference anyways?
so what’s the difference?

Save(d)

poetry

Many different people can rescue you:
from a burning house
from a sinking ship

from a collapsing building
being trampled underneath a stampede
mauled by an animal
from unexpected in-laws
severing your own wrists
thieves in the darkness

from drowning
an awkward conversation
when a disaster strikes
from extreme boredom
unwanted responsibility
a squealing crash
bound and gagged in captivity

throw a life raft
bail you out
take the bullet for you
swerve just in the nick of time
pull you from the wreckage
slam the brakes
offer a listening ear
push you out of the way
pay your loans
take the blame

you can be rescued from many things
but only one person can save you.

Full Moon Fever

poetry

It was Condensation-damp that night
when I paid a visit to your garden
and it grew well, at least the Morning Glories did
and it was your mother’s favorite spot
in the whole wide world

and it was fitting, I suppose,
in all the wrong sorts of ways,
that you went so far to show it to me.

After all, though we tread softly,
it was not our garden to trod upon.
Your mother was quick to show us that,
too.

Another for G Nasty

poetry

Dry goods and processed foods deaden your palate
While your gullet undulates furiously
to make due with what amounts to nothing
and your body is hungry and your eyes are dry
but your nails have grown long in this squalor
and every now and then you scratch yourself
deep enough for the blood to just get through
and you know that you are living
though you feel as though you’re dead
but you only think that it’s a terrible shame
and you’d be far more comfortable
six feet under in a large padded box
or less hungry at the least.

I Love You, man.

poetry

Those thoughts came across as vacuous and venomous
hardly worth the time taken to think them
blown out of proportion
creeping like a terrible octopus from a wooden chest
just like in that nightmare you had
and they scared you just the same
so you sleep with a spear next your dresser

Those thoughts tried to kill us
and tried to tear us to shreds,
or to split us in twain or strangle us whole
(as a terrible octopus might)
they tried to inject their terrible venoms –
a cockail of pain and wrtetch and necrosis –
but your spear was at the ready

And when I ran to you to warn you
you were standing over the fleshy, spineless corpse
of some terrible octopus,
And though your spear was snapped in two
and the monster’s tentacles were still squirming
I knew you had won the thing
and I knew that we were going to be alright

my boys

poetry

i’ve me two girls as cute as can be
melt my heart, abuse my soul, manipulate me.
(as only girls can do to their daddys)
but eight months or so and i’ll’ve me two boys
destined to be studs, a different kind of joy.

beer brats, movies with car chases, and eventually
someone to teach to smoke a pipe, drink beer,
love scotch.

and this whole new part of me is revving up in
absurd excitement.

four’s a real family, and i’m a real dad.
a reality strange to me
and any friend i’ve ever had.

different stuff

poetry

“the violently shaking house”
“the undoer”
“corn syrup baby”
“i wish i could eat different food”

when i read through, i remember
the police laughing
“this house doesn’t shake so bad”
they said
he must’ve not had the spirit for it

everyone thought

when i read through, i remember
how he kept repeating
“i wish i could write different stuff”
“everybody wants to read different stuff
but this is all i feel”

and i wonder what happened
to the corn syrup baby
growing in a stagnant puddle in his shower
i wonder what came from that cesspool
if it killed him or if he killed it
if so he didn’t say so
in his journals.

scooter

poetry

i wrote me a headline
(something to flatter you in a “i bet you think this poem is about you” kind of way)
and found it constricting
(in a “this underwear is a little much for my ‘wee ones'” kind of way)
to the point of destroying
my creativity
(in a “i should use the word ‘like’ a little more” kind of way)
and so i dropped it
wrote this for you instead
and then gave it the same title anyhow.
sorry.

Defeated

poetry

She walked along the riverside with her hand on the railing
that had been installed many years ago to keep the people
from falling to most certain discomfort

She was distressed:
Her spirit had died
and had left her with nothing but a distant feeling,
a tingling in her fingers,
every time a conversion van rolled past

She contemplated leaving this town forever
but it hadn’t worked the first time,
so she contemplated ending things for good
but the river she stood by, it certainly was not deep enough
or strong enough to carry her
and the parking garage had a guard on it now
with express instructions to watch for people like her
ever since the fiasco last February

She thought for a moment of leaping in front of a bus
but surely that would ruin a great many other people’s days
and that’s not fair to them.
She was considerate.

So she kept on walking along her riverside
until the wind picked up and carried to her
the smell of a nearby housefire
which she ran, full-tilt, to the scene of.

There were six fire trucks and two ambulances
and she was sure no-one would be inside
so she ran past the fire-fighters
up the front stoop and through the door
and between the extreme heat and smoke inhalation
she did not come out again,
and with a dead soul and everything,
that may have been the best thing for it.

The Things Which We Can Never Forget

poetry

we can forget birthdays
people
wedding vows
names
dates
things which often we will say
‘mean the world to us’
anniversaries
socks
appointments
grudges
schedules
debts
we can forget the things which we say
we will ‘never forget’
lights
numbers
friends
keys
promises

but I can never forget
that dirty joke,

and the bounce of headlights
as wheels tumbled over his body
at fifty-five miles an hour
in the rearview mirror