360 desires

poetry

“this is not all we are”
the familiar refrain rings;
“beyond the pale a new life awaits”
holds out hope for the hopeless,
but i find it harder these days
to look past the mere matter
and see what lies beyond
with my vision obscured
by beer/wine/whisky
and my desire hijacked
by greed/lust/pleasure;

so the beyond disappears
in its very invisibility,
and the present intrudes
by its extreme tangibility,
filling my senses to the max,
demanding my attention.

Snobanks

poetry

She wasn’t the most beautiful thing too look at
but she could catch your eye
like a diamond speck floating in a snowdrift
on a frozen winter morning.

Her voice was not a singer’s voice
but it spoke so perfectly, so beautifully,
that a philistine such as I could
hardly comprehend her utterings.

But alas, her temerity opposed
my trepidation so extremely that I,
disheartened and forlorn, am left
on a frozen winter morning,
sifting through the snowbanks
for another diamond speck

classification, demographic, target audience

poetry

i’m mad, baby
a scientist
i’m sick, man
watching the mice
chase after that
cheese you dig?
i lose my cool about it
these people are
like barbed wire
man i’m just all
caught up. with their
health foods and
terrorists and taking
all the man out of
men or taking all the
respect out of woman,
drives me in circles
like a cab in england,
baby. one never had
to try so hard to be
smooth.
stuck in the grind,
understand?
maybe it’s these formative
years or whatever,
living off of vicodin
and ms. jane.

When A Brain Does Not Know Better

poetry

Imagine a day spent
in pure, twisted agony
based completely on
perception.

Imagine the pain of
knives through hands when
there’s naught but a
sharpie drawing on knuckles

Imagine a flame burning
toes, burning tendons
when only a cat brushes
heavy on your feet

Imagine a morning
of crying for no one
when everyone’s out
in the living room, waiting
to say good morning to you.

Why do you torture yourself so?

Why do you always imagine?

out to sea

poetry

inexplicably there are
days when an inextricable sadness
overwhelms me like an understated
undertow and i’m swept out to sea for days
despite your best efforts the lifelines you throw
are sometimes just too short but please know that
there are somethings one just has to do alone, like
drown.

New Year, Old Year

poetry

In with the old
and out with the new
I’m looking forward to
trying something crude,
trying something old
that’s never been tried before;

perhaps for this year,
the thing to do
will be to resolve
to not do anything new,
to hold on to the things of yore
not caring if they are a bore.

No rest

poetry

No rest for the righteous
as we defend our keep and country
while the Queen attempts to castle
even though that move is against the rules
and frankly, doesn’t make any
God
Damn
Sense

No rest for the righteous
while the meek jaywalk for miles
across country not familiar too them,
hoping that the cops don’t stop
poor men with torn shoes
but a penchant for outdoor dancing

No rest for the righteous
while the wicked never
seem to sleep
anyway.

No rest for the righteous
until they Clock
Out.

Stool pigeon

poetry

Walking through each other’s dreams,

The tattered streets will let you know I was there

first

No matter how hard he tries

He cannot see himself as real as you do you

You and your pure mornings

The heavens will not call out for you

Do you think crows dream about the color of their feathers ?


The immigrant’s dream sits on your front porch

hopeful

Your smile brings tidings of a victory

for a moment he feels like he can bask in the glow of

your sweet delusions

Like a sudden powerful jolt

he feels his youth

millions of little fireworks shooting through his veins

all his tomorrows pigmented with soft pastels

He would like to stay there with you

but, it is only a beautiful lie

On Fire

poetry

He told me that he saw himself on fire
I never understood the things he’d say
But never once did I call him a liar
When there’s no sense, what sense would that make?

He’d always come inside the Chevy freezing
He never seemed to know just what to wear
His T-shirt to his coat, a mere allusion
His blue skin could make a Martian stop and stare

He talked as grand as one could ever wager
High-minded as any man you’d ever find
And when he walked, he always walked un-faltered
as if he was someone you should get behind

I heard he died a week ago this evening
I heard he was high-minded ’till the end
With a book of poems in hand, he found his calling
he caught a bumper for someone he hardly called ‘friend’

He told me that he saw himself on fire
I never understood the things he’d say
But never once did I call him a liar
When there’s no sense, what sense would that make?
And after all, he set himself on fire
saving someone else for someone else’s mistake

The beautiful bastard

cancel the parade

poetry

the sun has greyed
out the clouds
so the children
count the star
at night
and get bored
saying
one
one
one
one
as my mind wanders
trying not to watch
the children play
and call out to their fathers
over their joy in seeing for
the first time in months
that celestial being
in singular