two days from now
i’ll wish it was two days from then
and that i could be back here
in my drab, too small cubicle
eavesdropping on my co-workers’
impotent, constant complaints
because anything is better
than watching a mother
whose lost her only son;
whose lost her future grandchild;
whose lost her hope
in her loss of everything;
everything that matters;
everything that gets her out of bed;
everything that gives her purpose
to face a day in which she will know
that she’ll never again
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her son again
and that she’ll never have
another chance.
I’m so sorry to say I know this situation too well. I wrote a poem about it not too long ago. Our family has a sad history that makes one’s mind boggle, and forces the mind to ponder our existence and why people are made to suffer. It seems like a final destination movie. Although it does not make it better for anyone else, I hope that this person was not too close to you. The grief will shift and dissipate over time.