how many questions must arrive
who upon the earliest to rise
found no falling leaves or scents of such
but the sweet odors of nights dewly dust
the spring has returned with no flower
but beautiful none the less
Month: October 2009
obsolescence – such awkward years
poetryas we adjust to our new bodies and in
feeling for friends,
grope around in the dark
backs of neglected cupboards
Ellipsis
poetryWhen I think about the death of my parents
Of those I love
I’m overcome with repudiation.
It will never happen
Not me
Not to me
But maybe it can’t be avoided.
And who will it be?
Can I deny the inevitable until it becomes reality?
Who first?
Why them?
Why me?
Why not me?
And then what?
What will I do?
What happens next?
Cry at the funeral?
Know they’re “in a better place”?
Be consumed with self-loathing?
Filled with regret?
Why this?
Why now?
A shadow that I can’t shake.
A thick vapor that chokes.
The invisible talons that dig into my chest
Clutch my lungs and squeeze.
And I’ll sweat and weep
And it won’t be very poetic.
But if it happens
When it happens
I think I’ll have a lot of questions.
observations on women
poetrydistinctions like these make you a racist
(with a shockingly large vocabulary
for differences in the color spectrum)
Tanka
poetryAutumn rushing in
Blustery days and bright colors
Fresh with vitality
Long walks to watch leaves flutter
Inhale the changing season
idle
poetrynaked
altogether
not bored
reading
Precipitation
poetryThere are still dirt driveways
in our fair city,
and when it rains these
driveways turn to mud.
Just beyond the parts where
drunk twenty-somethings
climb in to their girlfriend’s cars
to drive past twenty-five shops
that they’ve never seen, only
heard of, there are Dead Tracks.
Foundry coke liters the lines,
the detritus of the pinnacles of
modern achievement
fifty years ago. Meanwhile,
all-but abandoned, mostly-
forgotten two-story buildings
set a frame for unused, overgrown
infrastructure to cut through.
I felt like an Aberration,
ghosting through the unused
parts and counting railroad ties.
Kicking the coke and rubbing
my chilled hands together.
Setting a pace over uneven ground.
Breathing deep the decay of
seemingly ancient modernization.
There are still dirt driveways
in our fair city,
and when it rains these
driveways turn to mud.
I shudder to think
what happens to
the rest of it.