reasons to believe

poetry

you can fight against the urge to die but
you’ll only ever find that 100% eventually give in
to scratch said itch and

if this is all there is to life the
hope you have will fail you soon as you realize
these are bad betting odds

and then you re-evaluate your hope

nnnnnnnnnnnnnnegative

poetry

god damn
their eyes are burning books
and their pre-selling what
they haven’t bought for
a date to be announced
god damn
if this is sanity i want
out into the black abyss
with no air or ground or
pressure holding me back
god damn
my voice is soaring ranges
like the mountains falling
from my stomach to my
mouth the way i scream
god damn
good, god damn

of type number 2

poetry

for there are times when
one language wont suffice for the things
we try to funnel from our brains
down and out our mouths
so we settle for adding another medium
perhaps words on the page – screen
might suffice for the

gaps we put in our thoughts
and then it hits us

three more words for the word thought
might suffice for this here thought

Repetition

poetry

He was clever by sheer repetition
with his violent wonderings hidden away
But he struggled with his own position
and fought with the choices he’d already made

Though soon enough his mind sublimated
and thoughts, fears and worries were put out of sight
Well, he couldn’t see what he’d created
for his cognizance failed him most every night

He could barely find his own position
but he was clever by sheer repetition

Pulse

poetry

The snow flies
the plot thickens
the crow cries
my pulse quickens

I’ve got a thought
to stay inside
To wait this out
where it’s safe

But I’m not sure
the rest of me
can keep up
with that pace

Damn it
swing another saber
Damn it
swing it loud and low
Damn it
swing it that much greater
Damn it
Watch it go

The snow flies
the plot thickens
the crow cries
my pulse quickens

Politics

poetry

We’ve got a good thing going here
so let’s keep it that way
you shut your mouth when we talk politics
Or just leave

And we’ll grin and bear your monologue
And let you tell your tales
but shut your mouth when we talk politics
or else it gets hard to breathe

Sifter’s Remorse

poetry

Eat your piecemeal porridge
and strap on your half-shined shoes
The whole damn sky is coming down
there’s not much left to lose

Your fingers cold, my fingers cold
we’ll wander hand in hand
stomachs filled with piecemeal porridge
and our footprints left in sand

But they’ll wash away eventually
we’ll wash away eventually
and leave us with a fallen sky
to sift through

discipline

poetry

i want to write,
to be a star,
to make riches,
to believe in me
but instead
the ideas refuse to cum,
to mate and create words,
leaving an impotence
of silence;

and so i make a snack,
raid some tombs,
read on the toilet,
fix a drink,
make my brain fuzzy
as an excuse for the
non-bursting,
un-gushing,
nay-exploding,
masterpiedic,
self-pleasuring words.

Values

poetry, theology

what is the worth of my time
when I sit quietly listening to you
I sacrifice my life now
for my life to come
but when I try to show my worth
y’all treat it as just my two cents
not much in this present world
filled with the self righteous
the selfish and quite clearly
as they are all the same-the conformists
two cents once a fortune
but now worn and valuable to whom I wonder…

what is the worth of my knowledge
attained through extensive study
when I am rejected and payed no mind
nor respect or tribute for input
that is of the utmost relevance
and has been built upon through
contemplation of mind
and heart and soul
to be applied to all paths of life
which I pray will one day emerge
in the dewy pastures where
you all will sit and say enlighten us
I will not be god nor am I now
but neither am I the lowly serpent
doomed to slither in constant fear
of being trod upon

when I will walk one road and no more
and always have God at side, on hand
and divinely inspiring speech