Confusion

July 9, 2008

People ask

“How do you feel?”

I say “Fine”

But do I really?

Am I to know

If I can not cry?

If I lie awake at night

Thinking without control

But not of my mother?

Love Letter

July 6, 2008

I love you-Goodbye.

I’ll always remember you-inside.

Of Mind, Body, and Soul-like the rest,

Mind and Soul I’ll remember-of you the best.

I’ll always know you were the love of my life

Through the sickness, the pain, and all the strife.

Saying goodbye was the hardest thing I hope to ever do,

I could only wish that it wasn’t to you.

For you raised me lovestrong.

Now I wish I could say-God’s will is wrong,

But faith in HIS plan is right,

Whether you do or don’t-survive the night

Mother, I love you-Goodbye

Hos-piss

June 25, 2008

Hospice

A word with all the powers of a magnet

Drawing things together

Somethings are shunned and wish to be repelled

But they always return

Others are accepted easily

But can never come back

Everything attracted has something in common

Power to express emotions

Love

Pain

Fear

Last wishes-like fire-are warm

But too much fire surrounding one self becomes

The source of more love

The source of more pain

The source of more fear

The smoke becomes a heavy blanket

Smothering its starter

To reduce the burden a stand must be made

One of courage where friends may be hurt

You can piss out the fire

But you cant piss out the pain

Great difficulty lies on the path where you try to be kind and loving

But sacrifices must be made

To live the rest of ones days with only the closest people to their heart.

Clutching at my Mary,

Thinking of the gift,

I’ll always remember

Who I wish to be with.

But some dreams can’t come true,

For life is the beginning,

Try not to grasp to tightly

Before Death comes running for you….