watching you
i remember the promise
that you once possessed,
now squandered and broken,
lying on the floor in pain
like a girl regretting
her thrown away virginity,
like you regret
your loss of purpose,
like i regret
the loss of my way.
why would you kill yourself
over the same thing again?
those smiles look so good
from a distance, just like
everything else. there’s
nowhere you can get where
you wont be and there’s
nothing you can see that
you can’t see and there’s
no one you’ve met that
you haven’t torn to pieces.
and if you take the pill
it will just dissolve
in your stomach like
all the rest. just
like
all
the
rest. and you know how
much you hate all the rest.
visit after visit after visit
to lou.
you’d think he’d get mad
with people crapping all over
him
and i just keep wondering
with this much water coming
from back there
why do i pee afterwards?
hersheys squirts
we’re not friends anymore
like a drowning man
coming up for air i
step out of this building
and into winter’s sharp
wind dying to breathe
you in.
We assume it’s only damaged nerves
but there’s no good way to be dead sure
just stick your hand back in the fire
and tell me what you feel
So if it burns you’ll be alright
we’ll only keep you over night
but if you don’t feel anything
at least we’ll know the deal
but either way,
we’ll be able to tell by the
horrified look on your face
